There's No Place Like Home

It is SO GOOD to be back home, y'all!!!  The trip was 95% m.i.s.e.r.a.b.l.e.  UGHHHH.

First off, we made the 3-hour trip to my parents' house.  Next morning, I kissed my two smallest kids goodbye.  Hubby, two oldest daughter and I headed out on our 3-hour drive.  Turns out, the man completely underestimated.  It ended up being a tad more than 4 more hours from Mom and Dad's.... up and down huge mountains at a 55 mph speed limit.

Somehow, I became spitting mad inside at my husband for the mountains, long ride, and my butt hurting.  Hahaha.  We didn't fight or anything.  I just made some sort of mental note about how I hate him for this.  Hehe, teasing.  I was definitely annoyed, but I don't hate him, and I knew it wasn't his fault.

So me and the kids were grumpy.  Eventually, hubby became grumpy.  Then he took a wrong turn and had to backtrack.

We ended up being an hour late for the meeting after leaving at 9:00 am from Mom and Dad's.  SHEESH!

Gosh, I don't mean to sound horrible, but the meeting was just TOO MUCH.  Services started at 10:00 am and went until 12:30 pm.  We ate and then were back in our seats at 2:00 pm until 5:30 pm.  We ate, and then we came back for more services from 7:00 pm until at least 9:00 pm.  

I was such a wiggle worm.  The pews were padded, but I don't do well with sitting.  Now I'm realizing where middle daughter gets her squirminess from.  LOL.  There was so much preaching that by the time the evening service was over, I was a zombie and couldn't even remember any of the messages from the day.  Wowza.  Just a lot physically and mentally.

Didn't get back to my two little kids until 7:00 pm Thursday night, so we spent the night at Mom and Dad's and headed back home today.  Today was his bday, so it was neat to be with him for that.  :)  We headed out at around 11:00 am and got home just in time to be a part of our bi-monthly homeschool group.  Total craziness - all that traveling and sitting and more traveling and then heading home right into activities.  Blah.

I didn't do the least bit good on my trip.  I'm not making a huge excuse.  There were a couple times when I could've made a good choice and didn't.  Other times, however, there wasn't a single good choice and there were no restaurants nearby for me to run out to and eat healthy.  This place was in the "boonies," if you've ever heard that express.  I was there from 10:00 am until 9:00 pm each day, and I really didn't feel like refusing food and fasting.  

BUT I did have lots of time to sit and think as my fried mind wondered during services.  LOL

I am sick of this.  I am sick of the fat roll that sits on top of my thighs when I'm sitting down.  I'm sick of my legs that look like a normal person's waistline when I sit.  I'm sick of being out of breath when I get called on to sing.  I'm sick of my upper stomach sticking out further than my chest!  I'm sick of feeling old and out of shape when I'm not!  I'm sick of feeling angry at pretty, nice-figured ladies just because I've let myself get overweight.  I'm sick of realizing I have a fat roll under my bra in the back.  I'm sick of noticing how my arms are getting heavier and heavier.  I'm just sick of this.

I'm really ready to get serious and get off this weight.  Right now it's snowy, but nice weather for 2 days made me ready to get out and walk the track.  I am excited about getting some new, good shoes when our tax return comes back.  I'm excited about walking around the ballpark or the lake for some peaceful time to myself.  I'm excited about feeling better about myself and getting happy again.  It will probably feel like it's taking forever, but each good day will add up and pounds will eventually come off.

So I'm back and soooo glad to be back home!  There really is just no place like home.  :)