Ta-DA! It finally hit - the binge. I can already hear my blog buddies Suzi and Lori scolding me for using the word failure. :) Love you guys!
Seriously... I know I'm not a failure, my weight loss journey is not a failure, but this weekend was most definitely a failure. Not getting what I wanted at Cracker Barrel really sent me on a spiral of "needing" those cravings fulfilled. I went through some pretty horrible foods. I had cheese Krystals, a small fry, a pack of M&Ms, a Cadbury Egg, a pint of Chocolate Extreme Moose Tracks, some chocolate chip cookies, pizza, a few caramels, sherbet Doritos, and a Chinese buffet.
Yes, it was that bad.
Another thing that really set me off was the scale. I hate the stupid scale but love it, too. I choose to weigh every day. Most of the time, I like that knowledge. There are times when I put the scale away for a bit, but usually I weigh every day. I got on the scale for weigh-in and was up 0.5. I didn't deserve to be up 0.5, and I knew that, but it still really stunk to see a + instead of a -. I always gain mid-cycle, and I even knew before stepping on the scale that I was very likely to see a gain. But after being so low on daily points+ for two solid days, I just really wanted to see a loss!!! Ugh. I let that gain rule my day, which was stupid.
So I am here to admit all this. My plan of action is to start tracking again tomorrow. I am not going to force myself to eat no more than 33 points+ a day until my points reset (Wednesday), but I'm going to try to end my day as close to that number as possible.
So that was my weekend. I'm not happy about it, but I wanted to be truthful with ya. This isn't a fly-by-night thing. I know there's gonna be ups and downs. I'm ready to get back at it!