Ta-DA! It finally hit - the binge. I can already hear my blog buddies Suzi and Lori scolding me for using the word failure. :) Love you guys!
Seriously... I know I'm not a failure, my weight loss journey is not a failure, but this weekend was most definitely a failure. Not getting what I wanted at Cracker Barrel really sent me on a spiral of "needing" those cravings fulfilled. I went through some pretty horrible foods. I had cheese Krystals, a small fry, a pack of M&Ms, a Cadbury Egg, a pint of Chocolate Extreme Moose Tracks, some chocolate chip cookies, pizza, a few caramels, sherbet Doritos, and a Chinese buffet.
Yes, it was that bad.
Another thing that really set me off was the scale. I hate the stupid scale but love it, too. I choose to weigh every day. Most of the time, I like that knowledge. There are times when I put the scale away for a bit, but usually I weigh every day. I got on the scale for weigh-in and was up 0.5. I didn't deserve to be up 0.5, and I knew that, but it still really stunk to see a + instead of a -. I always gain mid-cycle, and I even knew before stepping on the scale that I was very likely to see a gain. But after being so low on daily points+ for two solid days, I just really wanted to see a loss!!! Ugh. I let that gain rule my day, which was stupid.
So I am here to admit all this. My plan of action is to start tracking again tomorrow. I am not going to force myself to eat no more than 33 points+ a day until my points reset (Wednesday), but I'm going to try to end my day as close to that number as possible.
So that was my weekend. I'm not happy about it, but I wanted to be truthful with ya. This isn't a fly-by-night thing. I know there's gonna be ups and downs. I'm ready to get back at it!
I had a horrible food week last week too. But it's time to stop and reset for me too. We can do it!
ReplyDeleteThose binges are never fun. I lost a bunch of weight in 2010 and then binged myself back up to where I started in January 1 2013. It is such a vicious cycle. Disappointment/stress/what have you = the need to eat = comfort which turns into more disappointment/depression/etc = the need to eat... it is soo very horrible. Start again. The only time you fail when you fall is when you decide not to get back up. :)
ReplyDeleteBinges, unfortunately, are a totally normal thing. They happen! Sometimes (looking at the glass half full here) they're the motivation you need to kick yourself in the butt and get going again!
ReplyDeleteI know the feeling for sure. If I decide to indulge and then don't get what I want I feel cheated somehow. That often sends me in search of satisfaction another place. Add the double whammy of the scales, and I can totally understand the desire to binge. It happened, so pick yourself up, dust yourself off and move forward.
ReplyDeleteYou are right, I would have told you that you are not a failure. Your worth isn't measured by this one action or day. {{{smile}}}
Lori
PS I weigh everyday too. I have to have that accountability.
You can do it girl, i had cicis and mexican this weekend. BLAH!
ReplyDeleteAh I gain mid-cycle too. I just noticed that over the past year or so though...
ReplyDeleteJust move on from your binge! It's over. And I bet you didn't feel the greatest after eating all that!
Dawn
I had a mini binge on candy last night but I am putting it behind me and moving forward. I know you can too! :)
ReplyDeleteI was weighing daily but last week and this week I've chosen to just weigh in on Monday.
ReplyDeleteWe've all binged. We've all had a bad binge.
It's over.
Tomorrow is a new day.
You can do it!!
yicks- ya I've had my fair share of binges too! Don't let it get you down- you got this!
ReplyDeleteYou need to step away from the scale! There are so many variables for the scale to be up and down - not enough water, salty foods, etc.
ReplyDeleteThe number on the scale doesn't define you - making good choices and making each day the best you can does - and if you have to leave yesterday in the past and do the best you can today.
Hugs!!