Thankfully I was able to get fully back on plan today after having a really bad two days. I consider this an accomplishment because getting back at it after a day or two off is usually very hard for me. Thanks for the comments about the binge. I do realize they are going to happen. I just wish mine happened with way less chocolate involved. It was sad typing out the binge foods for you to see! Lol
Breakfast this morning was an Oikos Greek yogurt, 2 turkey links, and a banana.
5 points+.
Lunch was an Oscar Mayer Lunch Creations kit. I moved the Andes mint over and put some blueberries in its place. I also cut up two mini sweet peppers for myself.
7 points+.
Supper was 205 grams of Voila Chicken Alfredo topped with 14 grams Italian cheese. On the side, I had a salad made with baby spinach, radishes, carrots, red pepper, cucumber, and 28 grams RF ranch. I also savored a Pepperidge Farm 5-cheese Garlic Toast slice, too!
14 points+.
Supper was early tonight, so around 7:30 pm I had a Fiber One Protein bar.
4 points+.
Then right before blogging, I had a mini bag of 94% FF kettle corn and some kiwi.
3 points+.
Super depressing moment tonight. Middle daughter got a used digital camera recently. I was sitting at the kitchen table after supper, all slumped over and already feeling pretty low. Next thing I know she says, "Good picture, Mom!" My heart sank. I am at my heaviest right now anyway, but when sitting things are magnified because my stomach really is a bad problem area for me. It was a problem area even before I was heavy. She walks over and shows me the picture. Awful. Just awful. I was so happy it wasn't a close up. I asked her if she would please delete it, and she did without a fuss. After seeing that picture, I just felt so horrible. My immediate thoughts were "You should never eat a bite of food again in your entire life!" I know that's not the right attitude at all, but things sometimes just feel so hopeless. Even getting to 210 seems that it is going to take forever this time around. I was supposed to lose 5 lbs in January. So far, I lost 3 and then, as of this morning, gained all 3 back! :( I am just so up and down in my determination. Ugh. Okay, so mini-rant there. Sorry.
In a nutshell: I am ending my day with 80 oz of water, only one Diet Dr. Pepper, and exactly 33 points+, which is my daily target. Yay me! My right knee has felt good for about a week now, so it's time to start adding walking back in. Just honestly, I'm a total sissy. I don't know how you outdoor walkers do it in the wintertime. As far as my DVDs, even though I set my alarm for 7:00 am, I never seem to roll out before at least 7:30. Blah. Mornings and totally overrated! Lol But evenings are so jam packed that it's hard to make the time to walk. Anyway, I need to work on this. Seeing my picture tonight just further helped to reiterate that. Okay folks, goodnight!
Bravo for getting back OP, that's usually the hardest for me and often it's the beginning of the end for me. Great job!
ReplyDeleteI totally get not liking the picture...what is awesome is that your daughter's response was "good picture, mom". I am always reminded that when I am bashing myself, I am bashing my daughters mother. My sweet sweet girl thinks I created AND hung the moon. That always helps me put life into perspective. I have work to do, yes...but I have a cheering section that cheers before I even got started!
ReplyDeleteAnyway, don't know if that is helpful...it has helped me.
I hate seeing crap pictures of myself. UGH. Although I have to admit that is what did it for me...fattest bridesmaid around was i~!!!! No more after that, I never wanted to look like that again! But dont fear, I have been screwing up on the weekends too, and even though we are moving this weekend I am DETERMINED TO stay within calories!!! UGH!!!! I keep gaining and loosing the same five pounds!! I need a breakthrough lol!!
ReplyDeleteI really don't like any pictures I'm in! For me it's the wrinkles.
ReplyDeleteYou got back on program and that's what counts!
The thing I noticed was that your daughter said the picture was great. Try to see yourself through her eyes. She does not see any of the fat that you see. She sees her mother that loves her. I think if you keep focusing on what is right, the part that isn't right will correct itself.
ReplyDeleteI am VERY proud of you for getting right back on track. That is hard for me too. It is too easy to think I blew it so I'll eat a whole bunch of other stuff and start fresh tomorrow/Monday/next week/next month. The time to start fresh is now. And you did. Good for you.
Lori