Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Food Pics

No, I'm not doing Carb Nite.  At least not now.  I know better than to jump head first into something... again.  But I did decide to try to start making some low-carb, real-food choices.  I'm nowhere near perfect on this.  Nowhere.  And I'll tell you right now that I ended the night by making no-bake cookies.  :::sigh:::  Yeah, no clue what was up with that!  But up until then, I had a pretty good day.  I started out by entering breakfast into My Fitness Pal, but I didn't know how to figure out lunch so I never entered anything else.  I was going for low carb and healthy fats.

I just took pics for fun.  I'm definitely not taking them because I did so well, know what I'm doing, picked great foods, etc.  Just haven't posted food pics in a while.  :)

Breakfast was 2 farm eggs scrambled in butter, coffee with heavy cream, 2 slices of turkey bacon, and some patty pan squash cooked in just a tad of butter.

Lunch was a no crust pizza (made with cream cheese) and a salad with RF ranch.  I put cheese, turkey pepperoni, and mushrooms on the pizza.  I had just the two slices pictured.  Hubby wasn't home for lunch today, but this went over really good with all of us who ate it. 

I felt starved later on around 4 pm.  Low carb is completely new to me.  I can't grab a bar or a fruit.  I didn't want cheese.  I grabbed a can of salmon and took a few bites.  Lol 

Supper was more salmon!  Ha!  We had salmon burgers that I got on sale at Publix a couple weeks ago.  I allowed myself a wheat bun, which I guess is technically a no-no.  It had 12 net carbs.  I put a bit of RF mayo on the bun.  I had fried radishes while the rest of the family had fried potatoes.  We all had broccoli and cheese. 

So I really have no clue how many carbs I ate today....  but I'm sure it's way less than usual!  Well, minus dessert.  Sugar is the enemy for me.  Right before I started to cook supper, I was feeling a major chocolate attack.  I decided I could have ONE of my Dove dark chocolates.  I felt around on the top shelf - nothing.  I got a chair and looked up there.  NOTHING.  My husband said there was only one left, so he ate it.  WHAT?  Does he not know the magnitude of eating the last piece of chocolate in the house!!!   Lol   But this planted the chocolate seed in my brain.  The only stuff I had on hand was for no-bake cookies.  I did only make half a batch, but still.  Wish that I had hung in there.

I couldn't fall asleep until 1:00 am wee Monday morning time, so I didn't go to the gym Monday.  I turned my alarm off.  Last night, I started laying out my gym stuff and hubby asked what I was doing.  When I told him, he said he had to leave an hour earlier today because he was working 45 minutes from the house.  :::sigh:::  So I didn't go today, either.  Hubby is off Wednesday and Thursday.  I do NOT want to get up at 5:30 am on his off days!  But at the same time, I know I'll feel odd going at a different time of day.  But I just need to get over it!

I have a root canal tomorrow at 1:00 pm.  Ugh.  I hate spending money on root canals.  There's another monthly payment!  Thursday, I'm taking DM to the doctor at 10 am and my kids to the dentist at 1:30 pm.  Busy, busy.

My friend asked us to watch her pool for her again this coming Sunday until Thursday.  The kids are super excited about that.  I hope we have nice weather so we can enjoy it!  It's fun to go somewhere that I don't have to worry about others and can keep a closer eye on the kids.

Okay, so there's my post.  I'm heading to bed.  I am still gonna be experimenting with low-carb foods/eating.  I like the idea behind Carb Nite, but I can't see me making it the initial 9 full days with no carbs.  EEEKKK!  I can't even go ONE full day.  Lol  Anyway, onward we go!

Saturday, July 26, 2014

Out of Town

I didn't disappear for bad reasons!  I did get back to the gym last week.  I even had my hour session with a personal trainer Wednesday morning (two free sessions came with membership).  The lady was super nice.  Turns out she was homeschooled her entire life and homeschools her children now, so I felt like I had something in common with her right away.  I was a bit embarrassed because we sat at her desk, which was next to a full-length mirror.  I tried to ignore my reflection.  Ugh.  She wanted to know what my goals were.  For meanness, I should've said, "Well, I don't want to lose this physique!"  :)  But I told her I've struggled with being overweight for 13 years of our 15-year marriage.  I told her if it's out there, I've tried it... for 2 weeks anyway.  I was honest with her.  I told her about my knee and ankle problems.  Then I told her that I finally figured that even if I can't eat right, I can at least exercise!  But I let her know that swimming seems to be making me hungrier, so I'm not actually losing any weight.  She acted like that was very common.  I told her that has made me want to feel more comfortable in the actual gym part of the gym - not the pool.  :)  We decided to do arm exercises and machines for my first session.

According to the list she wrote for me, I did three sets each of bicep curls, arm extensions, lat pulldown underhand, lat pulldown overhand, tricep rope down, tricep rope pull back, and stretching.  I warmed up with 10 minutes on the treadmill and cooled down with 8 minutes on the bike.  As I got off the bike to walk back over to her desk with her, my exercise skirt got hung on the bike handle.  LOL!  That's happened like 3 times now.  Glad I have leggings, too!  Ha!  The worst part of the workout was stretching in front of a full body mirror.  She noticed my awkwardness and gave me a puzzled look.  I told her it was extremely hard for me to look at myself.  Mirrors don't lie. I mostly avoid mirrors other than my face.  So it was difficult.  She told me I had to look at myself stretch so I would know I was doing it right.  She also told me I had to learn to accept and love my body now so that I will have the desire to love it and change it.  I honestly think I would need psychological counseling before that could happen!  LOL By the next morning, my arms were super sore and I was aching. Ouch!

I will do another session with her, hopefully this week, and she will teach me some leg machines.  I'll have to be careful with those, though.  She said the water is really great for my legs because of my knee issues.  The water is so non-stressful.  :)

Went out of town on Thursday and stayed gone until late this evening (Saturday).  We attended a really good church conference on the family.  I was encouraged in a lot of ways but also felt conviction over areas where I know I have started slacking in my own life and in mothering my children   Also, though, it was good to exchange stories with other parents and realize that everyone's life with kids is basically crazy.  :)  We got to see friends that we don't see too often, and the kids had a blast playing with several kids their age.  I always love going down to the church we were at this weekend.

I am still reading Carb Nite.  It does make sense.  I just really wonder and ponder and agonize over whether it's worth it to even try.  I've got pretty low dieting self esteem.  LOL  I am not happy with my physical health right now, though, so I have to do something.  An elderly lady asked me if I was pregnant.  :::sigh:::  I gave her my standard response, "No, I'm not.  I'm just fat.  I'm at my heaviest weight ever, and most of it is in my stomach."   She apologized.  It's not her fault.  Some people will swear to me I don't look pregnant.  Then I'll have random people ask.  I think a lot of it has to do with what I am wearing, too, though.  My babies were from 8 lb, 15 oz up to 9 lb, 10 oz.  I carried them REALLY high.  I used to get teased that I carried my babies in my nose.  So my stomach is all stretched out.  Whenever I gain weight, it shows up in my stomach really bad.... my upper stomach.  Not lower belly fat like normal women have that is hidden beneath pants or skirts.  Nope, leave it to me to not be normal!!!  Most of my stomach is above the waistline, protruding, so it really can look like a pregnant belly.  Argh.  So my new philosophy with women is do NOT ask if they are pregnant unless a body part is sticking out!!!  Lol

Now I'm home, the kids are in bed, hubby has fallen asleep on the couch, dirty clothes are all separated and in the washer or dryer, and I'm blogging.  Just wanted to take a minute to update on my super exciting life <sarcasm> and let you know I'm still here!!!

Monday, July 21, 2014

Back to the Gym

I feel like I haven't blogged in a long time!  I guess I just haven't had much to report on.  Let's see... I know I told you about swimming Sunday through Wednesday last week and then missing Thursday.  Well, I ended up not making it to the gym once all week.  I found out a few things:  1)  I felt disappointed in myself for not going.  2)  My husband was worried I just signed a contract that I had no intentions of fulfilling - paying for it but not going.  3)  I got a late start in the mornings, there was no order around here, and I felt very unproductive.

I shared all these things with my husband and promised him I was going back Monday.  Since I haven't been getting up at 5:30 am, I've been going to bed later again.  I was in bed by midnight, but I lay there awake until 12:47 am when I got up to use the restroom.  I finally fell asleep a bit after that.  Even though I only got 4-1/2 hours of sleep, I didn't have any trouble getting up.  I don't know why I had such an issue getting to the gym last week.  I really like it, and I really miss it.  Well, I guess part of it is because I know I need to do the machines more and not just swim all the time.  That makes me nervous.

This morning, I scheduled my first free training session for Wednesday morning at 6:00 am.  It's a woman trainer, so that makes me feel more comfortable.  I'm excited about learning how to do some of the stuff that I'm unsure of.  I like to switch things up, but I won't try stuff if I don't feel comfortable about it.  Looking forward to learning!

I will admit that I just downloaded a copy of Carb Nite to read.  A friend of mine has a cousin in FL who did it and has had a lot of success on it.  I'm not sold.  It's not really the program.  I mean, I lose weight on THM and WW both.  It's not the program.  It's me, which I've said a million times before.  But for $27, I put it on our 0% card and figured I'd read it.  Lol

So there's an update.  If I'm quiet, it's only because - like I said - there's nothing new going on to report about.  Feels kinda boring to say the same thing over and over!  :)

Thursday, July 17, 2014

Lazy but Sore

So I wasn't able to go to the gym on Monday or Tuesday.  I chose to be lazy on Wednesday and Thursday.  This is why I hate missing days because missing one day makes it that much easier to miss another day, to miss another day, to miss another day...

BUT, with that being said, I told y'all we were pool sitting again this week.  I took the kids swimming two hours on Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, AND Wednesday.  While there yesterday, I started playing with our biggest pool noodle.  I put my hands on it and would push it straight down into the water while I was floating on my stomach.  I soon realized that the farther apart my hands were on the noodle, the more resistance I got.  Also, I noticed I was crunching my knees up while trying to push the noodle down.  So my stomach was getting worked, too!  Then I put the noodle behind my back and did triceps exercises.  I am seriously sore today in my arms, and I can feel it in my abs, too!

So while I have been lazy about getting up in the mornings, I have still been getting in exercise.  I swam a few laps, jogged around in the pool, held pretend water aerobics classes for the kids, did flips and spins, walked funny to exercise various leg muscles, and did a lot of doggy paddling.  The lady is coming home to her pool today, but that's okay because I need a rest day anyway!

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Disabled Man's Bday

I didn't get to go to the gym yesterday or today.  There are two days each month when hubby has a scheduled time to be at work.  He has to be there at 7:00 am, so that means I can't make it to the gym and back home before he has to leave.  Bummer!  Yesterday, I took the kids swimming for two hours.  We're pool sitting for my friend again this week.  So I got exercise in that way.  Today, however, it's only supposed to be in the 70s.  I'm not sure that's gonna be warm enough to swim.  We should've went to the indoor pool this morning early, but now it would be too crowded to have much fun there.

So since I have nothing really good to post about and it's been a few days since I've posted, I figured I would just get on here and introduce you to Disabled Man.  I know I talk about him often.  He is absolutely hilarious.  He doesn't mean to be.  He's not nearly as physically disabled anymore since he got his other hip replacement, but he has schizophrenia and is also a little slow mentally.  His schizophrenia is really mild since he is now on his medicines correctly.  He mostly just gets upset about something silly out of nowhere, gripes a bit, and then I scold him and he calms back down.  Want to know what makes him maddest?  When I don't go grocery shopping for him when HE thinks I should!  Seriously!  I do 100% of his grocery, non-food, and clothing shopping.  I have to fit that in among my family's needs.  He is like a child in a lot of ways that he wants what he wants when he wants it.  But he is mostly super kind.

From his story, he was abandoned in the back of a pick-up truck by his 14-year-old birth mother.  It was cold, and he had nothing on but a diaper and a bath towel wrapped around him.  A police officer heard him crying, discovered him, and rescued him.  His adoptive parents were related to that police officer, and he's the man that got them placement of Disabled Man.  They had two daughters who were quite a bit older at the time - looked to be 10 or 12 from the pictures.

His parents are now deceased.  He told me yesterday that his parents destroyed all info from his birth parents so that he could never get that info.  That made me kind of sad for him.  His two sisters apparently had to deal with him when his schizophrenia was uncontrolled, so there was a falling out.  The two sisters live two hours away from him.  Neither of them apparently knew his address or phone number back when I tracked him down.  Sad situation.

Disabled Man was being taken advantage of by someone.  That person was stealing his inheritance check, leaving him with minimal food, wasn't giving him his meds right, was stealing all controlled substances, and had taken out several payday loans in his name.  Grrrr.  I took over in May 2013.  He had medical bills dating back to 2009 that were unpaid.  He was constantly in and out of the hospital here in town because he wasn't being taken care of and just wasn't able to care for himself.  He has been in the hospital one time (other than hip surgery) since I took over.  He was able to be discharged from the pain clinic, because apparently he didn't need any of those meds!  They were for the other person who was stealing them.  He can walk without severe pain now.  He goes to Silver Sneakers classes at the athletic club three days a week.  He is clean and has basic clothing needs.  He should be debt free in less than 7 months.  And he is fed.  Even if he wants more groceries when he still has a fridge full.  LOL

So today is his birthday.  We called and sang to him, and that really tickled him.  I have invited him over for supper today.  I'm making chicken pot pie, mashed potatoes, green beans and serving apple cobbler with vanilla ice cream.  He can hardly wait.  Probably a good thing he doesn't own a vehicle or he would be knocking at my door already.  Haha

Taking on Disabled Man has definitely changed our life.  We have been super frustrated with him just like we get with our kids sometimes.  We also love him.  He makes us laugh.  He frustrates us.  He keeps me super busy.  He keeps the phone ringing and I sometimes have to turn off the ringer and let him leave voicemails.  My husband often teases that we now have a fifth child.

So happy birthday, Disabled Man!  We love you more than you know!

Friday, July 11, 2014

Lunch Date

Made it to the gym this morning.  So that was every day except Thursday.  Not my goal of M-F, but it's not bad - especially considering I was sick.

Hubby decided to surprise me with a lunch date today!  His mom came over, and we went to eat lunch at The Front Porch Restaurant.  They're only open for lunch, so we rarely get to go there.  I had the chicken supreme, fried okra, and congealed cranberry salad.  Delish!

Afterward, we had enough time to go bowling.  Hubby is an excellent bowler.  Well, excellent to me.  I broke 70, which was awesome for me.   Haha  He threw all strikes and spares except for three frames.  Bowling goes really fast when you don't have the kids with you!  But one game was plenty of fun, and it only cost $7.  Woohoo!  :)

We drove Mother-in-Law's vehicle because she took our kids in our van to a bird store to get some things she needed.  The kids really enjoyed seeing all the birds.  Anyway, I was feeling in a dorky mood, so I kept snapping pics the entire time we were together.  My husband is kind of an old man in a young man's body in some ways.  I am quite the opposite - very hyper and silly at times.  Lol   I have fun irritating him, and he has fun with how crazy I am.

Can you believe Halloween candy is already out at Dollar General???  Seriously.  Can we have ONE WEEK where there is not holiday candy out for fatties! Ugh!  Lol  Cadbury Scream Egg.  Took this pic for a friend of mine who buys cases of these things.  Haha, for real!  I also recorded me screaming and then sent her the pic and sound in a text msg.

My first attempt at a pic of us.  Rear view mirror got in the way.  Ha! 

Is he giving me the stink eye?  LOL 

Mr. Fuddy Duddy is getting tired of my pics.  :)  This is my favorite pic of us today because it's so true.  I'm the goofy one and he's the serious one.  LOL 

I finally left him out of the pics.  Really, though, he wasn't aggravated.  We were laughing so hard because he has eyebrows that go up in the air.  So any time I say smile, he moves his eyebrows instead of his mouth!  I do NOT understand that, but it's pretty funny.  So he kept trying to be less smiley so his eyebrows wouldn't do what they do.  Lol 

Terrible lighting, but this was the best I could do for a shot at the bowling alley.  I think he's adoring the ball, don't you?  LOL 

Just a fun little update there.  It was a good day to get a break from the kids.  For whatever reason, they all decided to be grumpy towards one another today!  Actually, they got in bed later than usual last night now that I think of it.  That was probably it!  Regardless, I was outta here!  :)

Thursday, July 10, 2014

This and That

I didn't go to the gym today.  I went Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday.  I cannot even believe this, but I spent yesterday with the entire RIGHT side of my face hurting!!!  It was my left when I went to the walk-in clinic on Saturday.  So I was pretty aggravated yesterday.  I felt like a druggy!  I had to take my steroids (today is my last dose of those), my antibiotic, Mucinex, loratadine, and ibuprofen, too, because of right ear pain.  I looked up symptoms of swimmer's ear, and that is most definitely not what I have.  I also noticed I was having tooth pain on the right side.  I don't know if it's from sinus pressure or what.  I do still have $8,000 in root canals waiting to be done.  U-G-H.  I always put off dental work because it is so expensive.  I'm going to have to break down and get this bottom, right root canal, though.  :::sigh:::  So that will be another monthly payment since I'll put it on my Care Credit card.  Y'all, make sure your kids are brushing their teeth and taking care of them!  I had 5 cavities at age 5.  My kids are ages 5 to 11 and so far have never had a cavity.  I don't want them to go through what I go through with my teeth.  There's your free tip for today.  LOL

Hubby preached somewhere out of town yesterday, so we have moved our church services to tonight.  I guess I'll be going to Publix afterward like usual.  I did fine with my no-dessert Tuesday.  It didn't end my life or anything.  Lol  My scale is up, like highest weight ever up.  I don't know if it's the steroids or what.  Not a happy camper about that. 

Let's see.  The point of that first paragraph was to say that I chose to sleep in today since I wasn't feeling good yesterday.  I haven't felt good in 2 full weeks now!  That just irks me because I finally add regular exercise to my life and I stay sick and gain weight!!!  Who does that?!  I still have 4 or 5 days of antibiotics left.  Hopefully this mess will clear up.  I'm still having to blow my nose.  Today, I mostly just feel toothachey.  I should've married a dentist.  LOL

Well, this post makes absolutely no sense, I'm sure.  Sorry about that.  I just realized I didn't post yesterday, so I thought I'd pop in.  You can only post to say, "I went to the gym today" so many times before that becomes boring.  LOL