Thursday, October 30, 2014

Better Days

I wanted to post last night, but I also wanted to get in bed at a normal time.  I'm really trying harder to turn off the computer, take care of things, and get in bed at a more decent hour - at last by midnight!  Sheesh!  I hope to be able to eventually be in bed by 11 pm, but let's not rush this.  Lol  But I wanted to say that Wednesday and today have been MUCH better days, thank goodness!  It's amazing what a little bit of time away to clear your head will do!  A friend posted this on fb today, and I had to steal it.  I just laughed.  Some days, that just feels so true!  Only I have 4 kids.

I went swimming at the indoor pool today with the kids for almost 2 hours.  I'm so glad we went.  It felt good to just GO BACK.  Once again, indoor pool all to ourselves the entire time.  I really can't believe our luck.  So fun!

My eating is so off.  So, so, so off.  And I feel yucky and heavy and miserable.  And I really don't know what else to say about it.  I would like to have some sort of motivational speech for myself and others, but I just don't have it in me at this point.  We've been eating at home, so foods haven't been so terrible.  I dunno.  I guess it's just if I'm not weighing, measuring,and counting points, then I'm gonna be overeating!

I used Wednesday to rework our homeschool schedules, once again.  It's really hard to pinpoint how your schedule should go until you are actually a bit into the school year.  By this point, I have seen some areas that haven't been working for us.  So I've tweaked those now, and hopefully things will go even smoother.

So that's my update.  And it's only 9:35 pm.  Whoop!

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Impromptu Date Night

This post is brought to you by a mentally fragile mother of 4 kids.

I just can't catch a break lately, y'all.  Yesterday was very stressful.  I actually went to bed at a good time last night.  I slept soundly.  Instead of getting up at 6:30 this morning, I set my alarm for 7:30.  But then I woke up to use the restroom at 6:30.  Why do I NEVER stay up when that happens?!  I need to because instead of sleeping for another hour and getting up feeling refreshed, I am in and out of sleep for another hour and then feel like death.  Anyone else do that?  So anyway, I was up before 8:00.  I even left a couple messes to clean before I went to bed last night because I figured I would "get up early" and clean them before the kids had to get up today.  Nope.  I have told my husband a bazillion times when he suggests that that I am just a night owl.  I prefer staying up until 1 in the morning, taking care of stuff, and then sleeping with things off my mind.  So I tried it the way he suggested last night, and I proved to myself once again that's just not my thing.  So instead of getting right into making breakfast this morning, I had the kids do school while I did what I wished I would've done last night.

I still had a stress headache (I guess it is, anyway) when I woke up this morning.  I tried SO HARD to just go with the flow of the day and not be snappy with anyone.  And I really didn't think I was.  This is the only way I know how to explain it - it felt like my head was going to pop off my shoulders at any moment.  It wasn't anger or anything, it was just stress from nothing going right and things seeming go-go-go since Saturday/Sunday.  At lunch, I laid my head down on the table and just really felt terrible. My husband was concerned.  I told him I was fine, just feeling overloaded or stressed or something.  Before he left for work, I walked in on one of the kids telling him that I was grouchy and hateful today.  That hurt!  I really, REALLY put forth effort not to be, even though I felt like I definitely could be.  I just burst our crying.  It especially hurt since I couldn't think of a single interaction with that specific child that morning that would have caused them to feel that way.  So then that child started crying because I overheard.  My poor hubby just sat there in the middle of two crying people.  LOL  Bless him.  Of course if my kid thinks I was grouchy and hateful, I probably did come across that way.  Kids are pretty honest!

I laid down for a bit and that child went to their bedroom.  I ended up going to that person and telling them I am really sorry they felt I acted that way today, that I had really tried NOT to act that way even though I didn't feel so great.  They accepted my apology and apologized for what they had said.  Then it was just like nothing happened.  I really think having a cry did me good!  My headache was gone not too long after that.  My husband called to say he had someone coming over to watch the kids tonight so he could take me out alone.  Awwww.  That was so sweet!  I guess he could sense I was stressed????  Hahaha

So I took pics of breakfast and lunch, but we went to our favorite Mexican place for supper so that blew the day.  I had scrambled eggs with 2 turkey sausage links, raspberries, and black coffee for dinner.  Our lunch was a salad with Tyson steak strips on top.  I had cheese, bacon bits, and lots of veggies on mine.  I used RF ranch and had 5 Pretzel Flips crackers.  Afterward, I had 2 Dove.  I'm not going to post the pics since I ended up not tracking all day.  I had the fajita taco salad at the Mexican restaurant and drank sweet tea.

Today was supposed to be a swim day at the gym.  When it was time to get ready to go, ugly clouds moved in and the electricity went off twice.  :(   You can't swim at the gym if there is any lightning at all.  It looked like that was very possible, so I had to make the decision on not going.  The daycare is closed from 1:00 to 4:00 in the afternoon, so I couldn't still go and take the kids.

I did manage to track 2 meals and drink an entire bottle of water.  Ha!  I mean, that's better than yesterday's water intake, right?  I am sooooo frustrated with myself right now.  I appreciate you all hanging in there.  I hate that getting off track one or two days messes me up for one or two weeks!  I was reading an article tonight that said, "Weight loss is more of a mental challenge than a physical challenge."  I have to say I agree with that!  There is just no easy way to lose this weight.  It's gonna take work and effort... and consistency!  I am not against work and effort, but consistency is definitely my struggle!

Well, I'm gonna try to get in bed at a good time again tonight.  We shall see what tomorrow holds!

Monday, October 27, 2014

WHAT a Monday

I seriously have a stress headache right now.  Nothing went as planned today, and I do mean nothing.  For starters, I completely forgot to make Disabled Man's shopping list or leave him money so his housekeeper could grocery shop for him today.  I did tell you all I was going to have her start doing it because I just CANNOT do it all anymore, right?  Well, last week was her first and only week to do it.  I dropped the ball for this week, and now she has quit her job.  Friday is her last day, so today was her last day cleaning DMs house.  This is a service he gets for free because I let Adult Protective Services know that this man has NO ONE AT ALL in his life but my husband and myself.  We just can't do everything for him and for our family and church, too.  Well, they do a good job coming out and cleaning once a week.  This lady liked DM so much that she would come twice a week.  She just worked it in because she felt bad for him being alone so much.  It's doubtful the new employee will do that.  Not to mention that it took them nearly 3 months to hire a new employee last time a lady quit.  :::sigh:::  So I had to go out today with all the kids in tow and shop for him.  Sadly, he has become quite pushy and ungrateful about me getting his groceries.  So I told him today that I was going to buy food for him for the entire month and he HAS to make it last!  He seemed to like the idea of having food at his disposal all month.  So now we just pray it lasts him more than a week. LOL  He is a full-time job!

So while I'm out doing all that, a single mom who attends our church had her car break down.  My husband went to the gas station.  He and three other men couldn't get it to start.  He finally allowed her to drive our church van back to her place, and he walked to the grocery store where the kids and I were.  He doesn't ride alone with other women, so that's why he didn't just drop her off.

My oldest daughter started a savings account today with her $69.  :)  So proud of her.  I hope she is way smarter with her money than we were when we first got married.  She has started giving to missions this year, and it's amazing to see how the Lord has blessed her for that.  She always has her pledged money to give, and she usually gets that back plus more each month in some way or another that was unexpected.  So we were at the bank for an hour waiting our turn and setting all that up.

I had to go to the pharmacy with Disabled Man's meds because there has been some confusion lately.  That was nearly another hour of my day gone sitting at the counter going over each bottle and quantity of meds.

Long story short, I ended up leaving my house at 2 pm and getting home at 9 pm.  It was just a really long, exhausting day.  At 8 pm, my husband just decided we would do kid's eat free at Shoney's before heading home.  At least Shoney's has fresh fruit bowls and veggies that my kids got as their sides for a decent supper meal.  There is lots more to the story all smashed in between, but it's not newsworthy and I'm honestly too tired to type it all up!

So I woke up this morning and was up 4 pounds from 2 weeks ago.  That was a major disappointment, but you all know how things have went over the last week.  I immediately began my day by tracking.  Then the day just started spiraling like crazy.  I let stress influence my food choices, and I stopped putting forth any effort.

So now it is almost 10:30 pm, and I am blogging so I can go to bed at a decent hour tonight!  This running all the time isn't good for me.  It keeps me stressed, doesn't allow me to accomplish what I need to at home, drags the kids around, and just makes me not a very happy person!  I'm happy to have DMs shopping over with for the whole month other than some bananas and fruit each week.  I really would love to get to where I do a month's meal planning for our family, too!  I am considering checking out Costco or Sam's Club.  Do any of you have an opinion on either of those places?  Which is your favorite?  Why?  Is it even worth it to get one of those memberships?

I am resolving firmly right now to 1) Not go anywhere tomorrow!!!  2)  Oops.  Go to the gym tomorrow.  LOL  3)  Get on our schedule.  4)  Eat at home for all meals.  5)  Track and drink lots of water.

I really started out with THREE strong weeks and losses.  I mean, that's a whole extra week more than usual!  :)  Then it's just been one thing after another.  But I'm really serious about losing this weight this time.  I want it!  I miss exercising.  Going back to the gym will feel a tad awkward after not having went for a bit more than a week, but I know I will be fine after I walk back in.  I'm just going to start out slow with treadmill and bike or something.  I don't want to be so sore or miserable I don't want to go back the next day.

Oh, Saturday with my parents ended up being much nicer.  We actually didn't even watch TV, and we all went to eat together before I left because the kids and I needed to have lunch before heading out.  I ended up putting the bag of candy my mom gave me in her bread box when she wasn't looking.  LOL  She hasn't mentioned it to me yet.  I know she will understand why I left it, though.  Poor lady!  She knows I don't want that stuff and will tell me flat out I don't need it, but yet she gets it for me because she doesn't want to leave me out.  Mothers!  :)

Before hitting the interstate, I told my dad to come over with me and Mom so I could take a selfie of us.  A WHAT???  He was totally confused.  Ha!  I was laughing so hard when I snapped the picture.  Our family has a trademark squinty eye when we smile really big.  Mine definitely came out for this pic!  But I love it because my parents look so genuinely happy.  Saturday was probably the best my dad felt our entire visit.

Then the kids had to have a "selfie" with Mamaw and Papaw, too!  Haha

Anyway, I just wanted to do a post instead of ignoring the fact that I've had issues with struggling or life going nuts and me allowing it to be a stumbling block.  Thanks for the response to my Food is Love post.  Looks like most of us have food pushers who more than likely mean well in our lives.  It's always nice to know you're not alone, right?!  :)

Friday, October 24, 2014

Food is Love

I was able to get some private time to post.  Ugh. I feel so frustrated right now.  I really feel like I could break down and cry.  I don't know if any of this post will make sense to anyone else, but I just feel the need to write!

I never thought much about food being an issue before I started trying to lose weight several years ago.  Now it's constantly on my mind - whether it's food guilt, cravings, denials, trying to eat healthy,  counting points, watching carbs, etc, etc.  I've also come to realize just how bad the "food addiction" is in my family.  My parents have always been overweight.  My dad has always been all stomach.  My mom has always been kinda heavy all over.  Except her legs aren't very big!  In fact, her legs are currently smaller than mine.  Have been for years.  So I am an odd combo of both my parents.  I have the chin, the stomach, but the all-over excess body weight as well.  Not exactly sure where these thighs came from.  LOL  Anyway, I never thought much of my parents being overweight because they have bounced between 200 to 250 my entire life.  They had me when they were 40, and I've never known any different.

As you could probably tell from my previous posts, I am always scared of food issues at my parents' house  There really is no tracking of any kind.  I can't even tell you the horrible arguments I've gotten into with especially my mom over the years by just trying to protect my kids from constant junk.  My mom knows all the times I've tried to lose weight.  She is a food pusher by nature.  I dunno.  She grew up during the Great Depression.  Maybe that has something to do with it.  She doesn't waste.  She always offers you food, and if you refuse she offers repeatedly until you have to get kinda ugly about it before she stops!  Used to I would text a weigh-in result when I would actually go to the WW meetings and would text several friends/family for accountability.  Her reply text would always be something like, "Not very much this week," or "I'm sorry honey, maybe you'll do better next week."  I finally asked her about that.  She really didn't know she was disappointing me, at least she says.  She said it just seemed like I was losing so slow compared to her two friends who did WW and lost weight so fast and ate McDonald's every week.  Thanks Mom!  LOL  I have no doubt that my mom loves me to bits!  We just clash on a lot of things.

So visiting my parents consists of watching TV.  That really makes me sad.  First of all, we're very picky about what we let our kids watch.  My parents aren't very choosy.  So when we're here, I'm playing referee.  Secondly, can't we just turn off the televisions and have some grandparent-grandchild time?  :(   I always look so forward to coming down here only to end up being driven crazy and completely disappointed.  My parents are in their late-70s now.  I get it.  They are old, tired, unhealthy, and they don't want to "do" much.  But still.  I just wish things were a bit different than they are when we are here.

We did get out of the house once today to go visit two sets of aunts and uncles.  These are both sisters of my dad  Super sweet people!  We go to the first aunt and uncle's house only to be given an entire plate of cookies, a baggy of fudge, and an entire bag of Reese's cups to take with us.  :::sigh:::  At the next stop, the kids were given one Reese's cup each along with an entire bag of microwave popcorn per kid - the very yellow, buttery kind - and a juice pack.  No one asked permission.  They just go in and start making this stuff and handing it out.  Ay yi yi!  Aunt #2 told me if she had known I was coming, she would've made me a homemade, double layer, peanut butter cake.  And I know from past experience that it is good and she means it.  She loves to bake.  When my dad was nearly dying last year, she made one and brought it to the hospital because it was his favorite even though he was on a ventilator and eating with a feeding tube.  LOL  And to end the day's outing, my dad insisted that we go to McDonald's for ice cream.

Now I didn't let my kids eat all those foods.  I allowed them one Reese's cup, some of their popcorn, and their ice cream from Papaw.  But then we get home, and a few hours after all this my mom hands each of the kids a bag with an entire Butterfinger bar and several Fun Size candy bars.  They did it for Halloween because we don't do trick-or-treating or Halloween at all.  Apparently people must think this leaves my children candy deprived.  Not so!  They came home with a brown lunch sack of candy each from the fall festival we went to last Saturday.  A lady at church gave each child a sandwich bag full of Nerds, Laffy Taffy, Tootsie Pops, etc. on Sunday.  I can about guarantee someone else will have something sweet for them between now and then.  I really think my kids would get LESS candy if we just took them door to door on the 31st!  LOL

So my mom hands out these bags of candies and the kids immediately want to know if they can have one.  Mamaw hears that and tells them of course they can.  I told them they could each pick ONE thing from their bag, but NOT the full-size Butterfinger bar.  Oh, before all this the kids wanted a piece of fudge.  I let them have one piece of that.  I ate like 4 of the chocolate chip cookies.  They never ate any.  I tried to give the cookies away to one of my brothers who came over, but they refused to take them.  Let me just be 100% honest and admit that I got up a few minutes ago and threw away all the cookies and the rest of the fudge.  WE DON'T NEED THEM!  My kids don't need them.  I don't need them.  My parents don't need them.  I just couldn't help it.  I had to throw them away or come home weighing 15 pounds more than I do.

I enjoy food.  Yes, I have issues.  It's called gluttony!  Why do I turn to food?  I don't know.  I really think it's a combination of upbringing, stress, taste, and comfort.  Regardless, I can't keep my hands off of tempting foods - especially sweets.  There are people I know right now who can't keep their hands off of Lortab.  No mater how hard they try or how good they think they are doing, if someone around them has Lortab they suddenly cave and take Lortab.  They are addicted to pain pills.  Well, I am "addicted" to food.  You cannot sit cookies in front of me and expect me to have self control.  Should I?  I'm sure I should.  There have been times when I have been able to exercise that.  But I find that avoiding that is the best thing for me.  So I ditched the food to remove the temptation from my life!  It is soooooo bad when we're here!  To my amazement, there are no Little Debbies or anything like that around this time.  WHEW!

My mom did make her chicken and dumplings today.  She said she was making those, mashed potatoes, and green beans, possibly some cornbread dressing.  I was able to talk her out of it.  Amazing because my mother is as headstrong as her daughter that she created.  Ha!  But I told her we ONLY wanted the dumplings, no need to work herself harder or fatten us up any further.  So thankfully, she only made the dumplings and I had one bowl.

So I was telling my husband on the phone today about all the family visits and food issues.  It hit me.  I told him, "Jimmy, in my family, food is love."  I really believe that.  I never noticed it before, but as I look back on the years both my grandmothers baked and made sweets for you.  It was just natural.  If you had company, you prepared food.  If you were a guest, you ate it because it showed you were grateful.  My mom will bug you to death about food until you either eat it or get in an argument.  LOL  Yes, we are loony - myself included.  I can't imagine how this post sounds.  Can ANYONE out there relate to any of this?!

I try so hard to keep a balance with my kids of eating healthy and still allowing desserts and some favorite foods that aren't so healthy.  Lately, though, I just feel like I'm totally losing that control.  There is always outside food being given.  And my kids are kids.  They see candy and sweets - not cavities and clogged arteries.  It has to stop!  A lady at our church used to hand out Tootsie Rolls only on Sunday mornings after church.  Now she hands them out after each service.  She thinks I'm crazy because I allow my kids to have only 2.  But hello... that's 3 times a week.  It adds up over the years!  Lol

So basically I have sat here in the house watching cartoons or 19 Kids and Counting because that is the safest thing around here to watch and Mom has 20 episodes recorded on her Dish Network thingy.  Ha!  I have eaten poorly.  I have drank 0 oz of water.  I feel yucky and sluggish and disappointed and am so ready to go home!  I think my husband likes when I come here just because it confirms in my heart that I could NEVER leave him and come back here to live with my parents.  ROFL

I just want to go home and go grocery shopping and recommit to trying to make better food choices.  I want to hit the gym again starting Monday if everyone is healthy and make my 10-pound goal!!!  I want to spend one-on-one time with my kids, enjoying them.  I want to have 15 more kids!  No, that part is totally a joke.  LOL  :)  But I do want to be a way better mother to the 4 kids I do have.  I just want to stop the tradition of food being love.  That's what I want.

Thursday, October 23, 2014

Before I Leave

Hey!  It's actually 1:00 am, but I wanted to do a quick post before going to bed because I know I won't get to do one tomorrow.  I've had a long day with schooling, tons of laundry, church, and packing.  I didn't even take food pics today.  Just too much going on!  I weighed again this morning, and I was only 0.5 above my WI two weeks ago.  Yay!

I do plan not to overeat at Mom and Dad's house.  Yes, I'm going to have the dumplings and will eat some biscuits and chocolate gravy.  However, I'm going to try to have "normal person" servings and not eat junk the entire trip!  I guess I won't have a weigh in again until next Friday.  I sure do hope to hit 10 pounds down at that point!!!

The finalists in the Publix Paws contest were announced today.  I have to admit I was a bit shocked that Reese didn't make it as a finalist in the cat category!  I mean, I believe them.  Fine.  I know one person said they went through the first six pages of cats and voted for each one and the most votes was really low.  I voted for several cats at random, and the most I got was 58 for one of the cats.  My cat had almost 1700!  They aren't showing the vote count on the winners, and that part disturbs me.  I just want to know how close my cat WAS to being in the finals.  Did the other cats all have over 2000 votes or what?!  The only other thing I know is after submitting and reading the rules, you aren't allow to have advertisement for a third party on there.  Well, there was a Suave lotion bottle in my picture.  So is it possible that I was a finalist but that disqualified me?  See, I just want to see the #s!  Lol  The proof is in the pudding.  Oh my.  I probably shouldn't talk about pudding.  This is a weight-loss blog.  Ha!  Just kidding.  :)

Okay, so I have to get up early enough tomorrow to have 3 kids take spelling tests and do arithmetic lessons, get out the door on time for our homeschool group with the van loaded for our trip.  Packing wasn't so bad since it's just a 2-night stay, so I've got that all done except for toothbrushes and such.  It's so nice that the older 2 basically pack for themselves now.  Woohoo!

Currently 1:11 am.  I must sleep!  Goodbye!!  :)

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Uh Oh

Talked with my mom on the phone today.  She was telling me that she had cooked up a chicken so she could make chicken and dumplings for us when we come visit.  And she will also be preparing biscuits and chocolate gravy.  And no telling what else.  Ughhhhh.  Love my mom!  Love her cooking!  It looks like I won't be getting to have her dumplings this year at Thanksgiving because I don't think we're gonna be able to get together.  But still.  How in the world do you count points for those things?  Hers are amazing!  And the biscuits and chocolate gravy is a childhood thing.  Now my kids expect it when we go, which is not very often anymore.  So I'm a bit disappointed about how my week is obviously going to end.  But I'm going to see my parents and going to enjoy visiting with them!  That is my focus.  I can count points up through Thursday at supper, at least, and then I'll be back home Saturday late afternoon.  Anyway...

I weighed this morning just to see where I stood, and now I'm down to being 1.5 up from my lowest WI on the 10th.

I didn't make it to the gym again today.  First off, I wanted to make sure youngest daughter had been without a fever for long enough.  She hasn't had a single complaint about her throat or anything since early Monday morning, so that's good.  But when my son woke up this morning - pardon me - he had gunk crusted up on his cheeks and in his nose.  So I decided right then I should hold off yet again and make sure he's okay, too.  And he is.  He has always suffered with horrendous allergies, and usually his issues are first thing in the morning.  He's not had a runny nose or anything all day after giving him his allergy pill.  I should've done a video or something, but we were off schedule yet again and that messes up our day.  I stayed on the go all day with school, dishes, sweeping, laundry, doing bed sheets today, cooking, going and getting my eyebrows waxed, etc., etc., ETC!!  Lol  But at least I still tracked today, even with being so busy.

Today, the 21st, is the last day of voting for my cat in the contest.  If you are reading this on the 21st, try clicking HERE and casting a vote.  I'm not sure if the cut off is 11;59 pm Central time or what, but you can try!  :)  Last count was getting close to 1700 votes.  Amazing!

Breakfast was 2 eggs scrambled in butter, a slice of Sara Lee Delightful bread with 1 TBSP apple butter, 2 turkey bacon slices, and black coffee.

Lunch was ravioli topped with shredded 2% Colby Jack, a slice of bread with PB2 on it, and some 100% juice canned pineapples. 

This is PB2 in case anyone hasn't heard of it.  You mix the powder with water, and it's 1 points+ per serving.  I wasn't overly thrilled with it.  I guess it didn't seem as sweet as regular pb or something.  Anyone have any tweaks to it?  Regardless, it was still nice to have pb for less than 3 points+ a serving (and that's only a half serving).  I almost sprinkled some Stevia in it just to see if that would fix the issue for me.

Afternoon snack was a grahamfuls and a banana. 

My husband has been asking for the hot wings I used to make when doing Trim Healthy Mama.  They really are good.  I put 4 on my plate (pictured), but I ended up only eating 3 of them.  I also didn't use any of the blue cheese on my plate past one dip.  I decided I liked the wings better without the dressing.  I also had green beans and mashed potatoes.

I also realized today that I won't even be home to use my own scale for weighing in on Friday.  And I guess there won't be a weigh-in video on Friday considering I won't be home and won't have my scale!!!  I am happy that I've put effort back into tracking this week, even though I obviously won't make it through the whole week.  Bummer.  I don't know how I feel about all this.  I mean what I said about not wanting to use excuse after excuse not to track, but doesn't it seem like there really are some circumstances where tracking just isn't gonna be very possible?  But at my parents' house, NO weight loss plan would be possible.  I'm sitting here thinking of THM, calorie counting, WW, and low carb dieting.  None of those would be doable while visiting my parents.  I just keep reminding myself that it'll probably take me at least a full year to lose this weight.  I know me.  I know my busy life.  I know my struggles around PMS time.  I know the holidays are coming up.  Then there are new holidays right around the corner in 2015.  So I just need to keep plowing along to the best of my ability and losing when I can and hanging in there and not quitting just because things aren't perfect for a short time.  

Well, that's all of the profoundness from me tonight.  LOL  Bye!

Rubber Triceps and Pink Squash

Hello!!!!  I was a total loser on Sunday and failed at getting back on plan.  We pulled in the driveway at 11 pm on Saturday night.  Finally got in bed a bit after midnight.  All of us were WORE OUT on Sunday.  I was able to get up at a decent time, but the poor kids just wouldn't wake up.  I decided it would be an easy hair day for the girls and just let them sleep!  Lol  We all still managed to make it to church on time, even with picking up the elderly lady who rides with me.

Honestly, I did track breakfast.  I even took a picture.  Have you ever tried to eat scrambled eggs while driving?  LOL  Ugh.  I really need to just stick with a bar of some sort on Sundays.  I'm always rushing around and never have time to eat decently.  Anyway, we've had this new family visiting.  They had some questions and asked about going out to eat together after service.  They didn't tell us until AFTER service, which is fine.  I guess it just kinda got our mind off of coming home and making spaghetti and onto which restaurant we should go to.  My husband had some family members visiting the church that morning, so things were kind of hectic.  The new family realized that and decided to just come to church early that evening and talk with my husband about things.  So hubby walks up and says, "So meet you at home for spaghetti?"  But he had that look in his eyes of please no.  Ha  He had mentioned going out for Chinese, so obviously he was craving that.  Anything sounded good to this exhausted woman besides going home to a messy kitchen and making something to eat, so my reply was, "Meet me at the Chinese place!"  And off we went.  I really did MUCH better than in the past.  I ate way less.  I didn't eat any dessert, but then I went to Kroger next door and got a pint of chocolate extreme moose tracks.  I only ate the chocolate chunks out of it, not even all of those, and then I handed it to hubby to get it away from me.  Then I took a 3-hour nap!  Man, did that feel good!

After church that night, I went to one store only and bought just what I needed to get us through the days that we will be home this week.

Hormones are all balancing out now, and I was able to get back on track today.  I took pics of everything. I did have a couple of cravings, but I was able to stay strong.  Amazing the difference that hormones make in your willpower!!!

Breakfast was an apple cinnamon oatmeal pack with Sweet Blend, butter, and cream mixed in.  I had 2 turkey sausage links, a pear, and black coffee.

Lunch was 2 slices of Sara Lee Delightful bread with 10 grams of RF mayo, 1 slice of Sargento Thin pepper jack cheese, and 56 grams of roast beef.  I grilled it but with no butter or anything, so toasted???  I had an individual bag of some cool flavor of Fritos twists on the side.  They were 5 points+ for the bag, but this once I was okay with that.  Also had a banana.

I had 2 Dove afterward.

Breakfast and lunch both ran late today . I got up when my alarm went off at 6:45 am, but it was FREEZING in the house (well, felt like it to me anyway).  I got up and turned the heat on, but I was cramping so terrible that there was no way I was getting up.  So no schedule today.  Even my husband slept in and went to work late.  Had such a fun weekend, but it was just a busy, long weekend.  We all needed some rest!

Since breakfast and lunch were late, no one needed a snack before supper.  I knew I was making spaghetti, but when I pulled my half a spaghetti squash out it had pink freckles.  Figured that wasn't a good thing.  Lol  I was really bummed because that meant I had to eat actual noodles, which meant 5 points+.  I felt a twinge of "oh well, you tried, eat up," but instead I told myself to count the points and just stay focused.  I weighed my noodles dry and then cooked them separately from everyone else's.  I sauteed red bell pepper, onion, and mushrooms in 1 tsp of coconut oil and then added 1/2 cup of Ragu sauce, 2 oz of lean burger meat, and 28 grams of Italian cheese.  I had a slice of  Pepperidge Farm garlic toast on the side.  It was very good.

I had only had 1 bottle of water all day, so I drank 2 more after supper.  I also had 1 more Dove dark chocolate.

I started today with the points I was given at my last lowest weigh-in (the 9-pounds-down one), and I have given myself 20 weekly points to make it through until my points reset on Friday.  I know I don't even deserve the 20, but I tried to work it to where I have no excuse to call it quits until another week has passed by.

I didn't go to the gym today for multiple reasons.  For starters, my youngest daughter complained of a sore throat on the way home Saturday night.  I checked her Sunday morning, and she didn't have a temp or anything . I assumed it was from being outside all day Saturday.  None of us have ever had Strep throat.  She continued to complain on Sunday, and she woke up this morning with a temp of 100.0.  No sick kids at daycare.  I gave her some ibuprofen and she went ahead with her schooling once that kicked in.  No issues the rest of the day.  Odd!

Okay, my triceps have KILLED ME all weekend.  They were definitely sore on Friday evening after my training session.  On Saturday, they were VERY sore.  On Sunday, I took ibuprofen.  LOL  They were seriously THAT SORE.  My right arm is especially sore.  My triceps are even sore to the touch!!!  I had the self checkout guy at Kroger scan my water for me last night because I just knew I couldn't lift that water!  Then I got lucky and a buggy guy was taking in buggies and said he would put my water in the van for me. Thank you, Lord!  Blessed.  Lol  My right arm is still so sore today that every time I try to lift my hand up to rub my eyes or put my hair in a pony tail, I cringe and complain.  I am shocked!  The most exercise my triceps ever get is flapping in the wind while waving goodbye to someone!  I guess hey are in shock!  Hahaha

I have no clue what I weigh because I've not weighed since Friday morning.  I don't expect the # is very pretty, but I do expect it to get better.  :)

So I'm off to bed now.  Late.  Again.  Go figure.  I do want to say that the 21st is the last day of voting in the contest my cat is in.   I'd appreciate if you'd follow THIS LINK and cast a vote for me again.  :)